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Im at my wits end, sitting here in my bed with my beloved cat. Im miserable, and I am trying to look forward to something. I suppose that something could be my birthday.. its getting closer. And Sacred Earth. mostly Sacred Earth.

On my Impromptu flying trip home (due to my raging UTI) I started planning in my head. I can no longer deal with not having a calendar, so I drew up my own template. Oh how clever I was, I left one blank and made it into a .PDF file.. OMG thinking ahead!. anyhow.
I started thinking about what I can do to try and make my Sacred Earth trip more attainable. As its been something I have wanted to return to since the day I got home from it last year! I decided a specific amount of money each week (depending on if I even -have- money that week) is getting set aside in a secret hidey hole. If I do it right, I should have enough for my ticket, and the gas, and maybe even a little extra!

Beyond daydreaming about Sacred Earth, I got to thinking about all the things I want and need, things I need replaced, things that need upgraded. I cant help but fantasize.. my birthday is coming, and I am damned determined to make it not suck. As my 21st was horrible. so I decided to go  NUTS and make a wishlist. More or less so I can look at the horrible collection of stuff I'll never fucking own. but whatever.. At least I can come to my journal after this entry is made and stare instead of just seeing it all in my head.

So yea, its not much.. I mean :x

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Poi Stuff:

Flowlights . in "spirit"

Crystal cases (for flowlights) . one for each Flowlight

Colecord poi cords . in  "Sonar Black"

Fluffy practice poi . in "Yellow"

Clothing/ ETC:

Purple Kaos plugs . in 1/2in

Lime Green Kaos plugs . in 1/2in

Hairbrained - panties . in "evil beaver", SZ med.

Hairbrained - panties . in "rainbo" , SZ med.

Other stuff <3:

Strap on Harness (I have searched and searched for "the one", this is totally it!!)

The Bandito .. to go with the harness ;)

Pony Mask ( the most badass thing ever, I have visions of spinning Poi in this :p be cause I'm ridiculous)

Glass Ben wa Balls (nothing says I love you, more than a tight pussy <3)

The Jelly fish ..holy shit a light up dildo!

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I think I am going Poi crazy. and I think its because I havent spun in about 6 months. Its -really- driving me insane. My birthday wishlist consists of Sex stuff.. and Poi gear. I'm hopeless. and its pretty obvious what I think about most..

UGH..
But just the mere thought of practicing poi again makes me excited. it was so therapeutic for me. Almost as good as riding. For me, it connects me to me on a deep level that rivals meditation.