A letter to the Editor

I refuse to trap myself in a position where I can get screamed at, yelled at, blamed, forced against my will, etc. Because of stupid. ass. shit.

Just because someone is upset with another, especially in a relationship dose it give them the power, ability or right to place blame on the other. I cant fucking stand it. I especially cannot tolerate the "one-uppery" that goes on. I dont want to hear about other people my significant other has so much as breathed next to. Let alone rendering the balls to compare me to some.. person they previously have been involved with. Even for the sake of explanation.

In my little world it is unacceptable to come at me with unrealistic qualms and then blame me when they are not even close to the truth. Its not even remotely acceptable to get mad at me for something you suspect I might be feeling. There is a huge reason I do not share the bulk of my emotions and thoughts with those close to me. They generally dont coincide with my facial expressions or body language. My body could be saying "fuck me" and my mind is thinking " gee I really wish I had some miso soup right about now"..
It makes people think i'm lying, leading them on. My favorite is when I've wrapped up inside myself and am having a wonderful daydream.. and then somebody will ask me (no..wait) TELL ME something is wrong. and insist i'm in a bad mood because of some dumb-ass expression thats been dripping off my face for the past fifteen goddamned minutes.

No, I'm not upset. I just despise everybody right now, and my fuckyou meter is at capacity.