I seldom get the chance to write after a night out.
But here I am, laying in the most comfortable bed in the world, with the most wonderful man on this planet.. and I am exhausted and with what I can only suspect in a mild case of food poisoning..
Right after the last song I danced to this evening I immediately felt the need to vomit. but continued to ignore it until Dragon and I had been on the road home for about 5 damned minutes. When it returned with a new, nauseous vengeance. I am particularly gifted at holding it down, which I did fabulously. I Even made it out of the truck and into the yard before I started gagging. A New World Record!
..I'm not here to be writing to write about the atrocities that ended this evening.
No, I originally opened this blank page up, to write about the wonderful evening I had with Dragon.
It feels like its been.. forever, and really it has, since we were both out together. For the longest time after we started dating, Nekro was just not the same. not that it has returned to its previous recognizable atmosphere. Rather, it has changed, as have we..
For the first night in what I speculate to be about 8 months, I had the most amazing time I have ever had at Nekro, or with Dragon. And it was because Dragon was there. He and I didnt get retardedly intoxicated, there were not petty arguments. There were stirred up memories, and smiles. Heartfelt embraces that came at just the right time. Everything seemed so perfect. Even getting to see a couple of our mutual friends.
it was more than I could have ever asked for in an evening, and then some.
Truly, I had never danced with him. not like that. maybe once or twice he and I had been on the floor together. but that was even before we were dating, and sheer coincidence. But tonight we were both up on one of the podiums at the end. Both happy, Both dancing.
There is no better way to let my mind slip away.
I was reminded so boldly, as to why I fell in love with him. Why I love being out with him. Why I chose him. He is a fun, witty, charismatic Man. He is impeccably irresistible. Even in his awkward advances.
These past few months away from the club have been very dark and harrowing. As much as he claims to be a reclusive person. I believe he enjoys being social, and requires it, just as much as I do.
I understand he will meed to get off to school here quite soon, and then work this evening. But I seriously think that this night was a long time coming.That that escape was needed.. Something that we both desperately required to shake us out of the funk we have been in. It is so funny that the very thing that brought us together in the first place, would be the same exact space we have begun to re-find each other in.
Despite the queazy feeling and this wretched headache preventing me from sleeping. i am left basking in the afterglow of a wonderful evening, and an odd sense of fulfillment.
I want to say these things to him, but he is asleep. And I find it incredibly hard to say such sentimental things out loud.
I only wish we had done this sooner..
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